1 month down

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I can not tell you that I have done everything I wanted to everyday in the last month.  I can’t tell you that it’s so easy now that I don’t even have to try because that’s total bull shit.  I haven’t lost a ton of weight or dropped 3 sizes in a month.  It hasn’t been an overnight transformation with my body, but let’s talk about what has changed and what is working.

I will tell you first that I rely on my fitbit for most of my motivation.  I jog at 11pm because I need to get my steps for the day or it tells me when I haven’t got 250 steps in the hour and I have 10 minutes to get my butt up and do something.  It tells me how many calories I can eat depending on how active I have been so far that day.  I just add my food and water in throughout the day and it’s super easy to do.   I love this little thing and the app.

 

I have went from struggling to jog for 15 minutes to being able to get in 25 with no problem most days.  Yes that’s only 10 minutes more, but I can feel a difference and try to push myself a little more each day.  Jogging has been the one thing that I have been most consistent with.  If I don’t jog, I have walked a good bit that day or done some dancing to really get moving.  So jogging has been my most successful goal and I’m proud of myself for sticking with it as much as I have.

 

Now I believe that you can’t just change one thing and get the results that you want.  So on top of being active I try and stay under 1200 calories a day, but stay around 1000 most day’s.  I know that doesn’t sound like a lot, but I eat a good bit of the right foods.  And that’s what it’s really about, eating the right foods throughout the day so you don’t feel like you are starving between meals.  I try to go light for breakfast and lunch so I can have a little extra for dinner.  My suggested amount is about 1500 calories a day, but I normally have no problem staying under so I do and then when I do go over I don’t feel as bad.

I am not happy to say I am only doing yoga about 3 days a week.  Sometimes it’s only for about 10 minutes a day, but I feel so much better the days that I do and more at peace with how I feel.  I am still a very tired mom with a 7 month old that hates me (that has to be it because he is never happy and sleeps almost as little as I do) and a super energetic almost 3 year old.  I don’t know how I get up most nights when someone starts crying, but I do and the next day I need to feel as good as I possibly can and I feel yoga will help.  My goal is to do it 6 days a week and I hope to be there soon.

 

Meditation, well that’s not going so well.  It’s been really hard for me to carve out time when I am alone to do it.  I can do everything else when the kids are up if I need to, but meditating is not something that can happen with them.  I have to be more dedicated to this because I truly feel it’s one of the most important things I can do for myself.  As a mother and wife I seem to put myself so far on the back burner that I forget I need to take care of me so I can take care of everyone else.   I know this is such a huge problem with so many moms and stressed out, overworked people that don’t think they should take time for them, but YOU NEED TO!  You need to let go of all the crap you deal with and feel like a person again.  Go take a bath and put headphones in so you can’t hear the kids screaming in the living room.  Or go hang out on the front porch for a while.  Do what makes you feel good.  Just do something for you.  And I’m going to work on making time for me!

Now let’s get down to the numbers.  I have lost a grand total of 2 pounds and dropped 1 pants size!  Yea yea that’s not much and believe me, I wish it was a lot more.  But my stomach is flatter and I am able to wear things that I would only wear with my waist trainer to smooth everything out at Christmas.  So yes it’s only 2 pounds, but I am happy with how much my body has started to change.  My body has wanted to hang on to what I had left of my last pregnancy and I have the kid (screaming all the time), so I don’t want to look like I did right after I had him.  But I also know that it is going to take time and how I feel can not be put into numbers.  I have to keep going and I know I will get to where I want to be.  

 

So to recap for you, I am good at getting my steps, ok at yoga, I suck at meditation, I eat pretty good, and I am super tired all the time.  But I also feel better than I have in a long time and am slowly starting to like my body again.  

It’s going to take time, dedication and hard work, but I know it’s going to happen.  So here is to one month down and a lifetime to go.

 

Namaste   

 

 

Finding Balance

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Right now I am struggling with fitting everything into my day that I want to do with my mental and physical health.  I find myself jogging at 11pm for 30 minutes to make sure I get my steps in after everyone is in bed.  Every night I think “I will get up early tomorrow and workout before everyone gets up”, but then I am up 3 times with the baby through the night and I feel like death every morning so that goes out the door.  I mean I have to sleep some too.  

So when do I get it all done?  Well today I jogged and did a quick workout after we all got up.  My husband was working in the office, I was in the living room, my toddler was running between us, and the baby was in the walker looking at me like I was crazy.  But I got my 20 minute jog in and I thought it was a great start to the day.  I should have no problem getting my steps in and I would just do a little yoga before bed.

Well here it is 9pm and I still have 2k steps to get, have 32 oz of water to drink (this is a struggle for me EVERYDAY!), yoga to do, and would like to meditate.  And that’s just what I would like to do for myself.  We still have to get both kids to bed, start a load of clothes, pick up around the house, and sweep the whole first floor.  It’s never ending and I always feel like I have only done about half of what I needed to.

Somehow I will figure out what I need to do so I have time for my stuff each day without feeling like I have neglected everything else to do so.  I try and include my kids as much as I can, but sometimes that just makes it 500 times more stressful because I am fighting with them to do it and just waste an hour and didn’t really get any workout in.  That’s not always the case, but getting a 3 year old and a 6 month old to do what you want and when you want them to do it is usually a fail.

So tell me what you do to make sure you get your workouts in and do everything else you need to do in a day?  How do you find balance?  Give me your feedback and let’s help each other!

 

Motivation

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Motivation is hard for me.  When you have a toddler that is like an Energizer Bunny and a 6 month old that cries or whines 75% of his time awake, you can feel the life in you drain out.  Don’t get me wrong I love them to death, but they will be the death of me.  My husband and I have talked about maybe having another and I just don’t know if I would make it to the oldest’s graduation if we had a 3rd.  I have no idea how people have 5 or 6 kids.  I would lose my mind in no time.  I would probably want to be taken to the loony bin to have some peace and quiet.  So thank the Lord for birth control and until I forget how stressful it is having a needy baby and a toddler at the same time it will be taken every night on the dot.  

But I’m getting off track.  Sorry, baby brain does not stop after you give birth.

Last week I had lost a pound!  I am not dropping my weight very fast, so a pound is a good thing for me to see.  That was last Thursday and on Monday I weighed again and I had gained the damn thing right back.  I have stayed at around 1000 calories a day, got my steps, jogged, all the stuff I have been trying to fit into my everyday routine and I gained a pound (WTF).  So today (Wednesday), I weighed again and look I gained another pound.  I wanted to throw my scale through the window.

Instead of giving up and saying screw it and going straight to Krispy Kreme Donuts right down the road with the “HOT” sign on and getting my free dozen when you buy a dozen I took the family to the aquarium, walked around the local tourist trap and went to the park to jog/walk before dinner.  I added a thousand steps to my goal each day and doubled my target active minutes a day.  Somehow I will get this weight off and keep it off by changing how I live.  Eat different and be active everyday instead of when I feel like it.

 

 

Right now, my main motivation is dropping 20 pounds and being happy with how I look.  It’s still hard for me to really enjoy working out everyday.  It’s hard trying to fit everything in between taking care of the kids and everything else that always needs to be done.  But I want to get to the point where it feels good to be active and feel better over all.

I find motivation in my family.  When my toddler rolls out the yoga mat and gets super excited to exercise with me it makes that workout a little easier even though I know he will only last about 2 minutes before he is off to do something else.  I want to be able to run around and play with them now and make it to be old and gray so I can drive them as crazy as they have made me through the years.  I want to show them how to live a healthy life and know that they are going to make it til they are old and gray.  It’s not just about me anymore, but I don’t want them to be without me so I need to take care of myself too.

And I find motivation in my friends.  I want to show them that they don’t just have to be ok with how much they weigh or feel when it’s affecting their physical and mental health in a negative way.  That just because you had a child and that baby weight didn’t just go away that it isn’t how you have to stay.  I want to be there for them when nothing seems to be working and figure out what will work for them or celebrate when they meet a goal.  But I need them to tell me when I’m doing good or when I’m messing up because I am far from perfect and we all need a friend that’s supportive when you are going through a big change.

So take some time to find what motivates you and feed off that.  When you need a little pick me up, go to what helps you.  Don’t be afraid or feel bad for where it comes from as long as it gets you up and going.  Do it for you when everything you do is for someone else.  Just do it.

Namaste!

 

Run for it

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I am fortunate to live on the coast of SC where for the most part you can be outside year round without a problem.  We don’t get much winter weather and if we do it’s gone within a day or so.  Which is good because I am not made for the cold.  I am that person wearing a hoodie no matter what time of the year and the slightest breeze will give me chills.  

I love being outside and I can always bundle up and go out in the cold, but I don’t let my kids get cold.  If they go out in the winter, you would think we live in the north.  2 shirts and a jacket, hats, gloves, scarves, and you better believe they will have a cover over them in the stroller.  I know it’s a little overkill, but I don’t want them to be cold!

So right now it’s very up and down.  A week ago it was in the 30’s and 40’s and yesterday it was in the 70’s.  SC is a little Bi-polar if you didn’t know.  But when it is nice, we make sure we get out each day and enjoy it with a walk somewhere.  I have been doing my best to be a jogger.  I have never been good at getting out and running and it’s really been a challenge for me.  And I have learned that it’s not something that you just start doing all the time.  You have to work your way into it.  

When we are at the park walking I try to do short bursts of jogging, but I do my best jogging in my living room and kitchen.  After the kids are down for the night I can turn on some music and go to town.  I don’t worry about anyone watching me and wondering if I’m going fast enough.  It’s me time at it’s best.  Even if it’s only for 15 to 20 minutes doing small laps around the kitchen and the coffee table or in place watching the first non kids show of the day.  

Everyday it gets a little easier and I can go a little longer.  And when it gets warmer I will be ready to take the kids out and run for it!  So stop giving yourself excuses to not jog or even just walk.  You can do it anywhere when you decide you are going to make it happen.

3 days in!

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When making a lifestyle change that you have planned for and thought about a lot, you go into it with enthusiasm and fire that drives you to really get to your goal.  The first day you go all in.  Making sure you hit everything you wanted to and feel great about it.  That was me January 1st.  I jogged for 25 minutes (in place in my living room and in little circles around my kitchen), I did 20 minutes of yoga, 20 minutes of dance workout videos, 5 minutes of guided meditation, and got my 9 thousand Fitbit steps.  I ate well and got my 64 oz of water drank with no problems and felt really good.  Now keep in mind that this is also on top of the everyday momma of 2 stuff and the nonstop cleaning that comes along with that.  I ended the day with writing down all I had done and how proud I was in myself for doing it.  It was a good day!

Now day 2 didn’t go as well.  It started with the baby waking up early and while he did go back to sleep, I stayed up and started my day with a 10 minute meditation, and a 15 minute jog while listening to my favorite Pandora station!  I was on a success high with how well my morning was going when my youngest woke up so we went upstairs to take a shower, gave him a bath before waking up my oldest to give him a bath.  We were doing great.  Had breakfast and cleaned the kitchen when I decided to take all the Christmas stuff down and that was pretty much where my success slowed down a whole lot.  But we got everything put away, I got my steps in and wrote before bed so it wasn’t a total loss.

Today I went into it wanting to at least do everything.  Well here it is 9 pm and I have jogged.  I am going to make sure I meditate, do some yoga, and get my last 2 thousand steps before bed.  But the point I want to make is that just because I didn’t do everything yesterday doesn’t mean I am giving up.  I still have to take care of my family and unexpected things are going to happen, but I’m not giving up.  I have to adjust my life to make it work every day and that takes time.  When I woke up this morning I weighed myself and I have lost a pound since starting, so I know it’s going to be worth it.  Hard work will always be worth it, so make the adjustments in your life that you need to and and I promise you will be happy with how you feel.

Find peace within yourself today and Namaste.