I can not tell you that I have done everything I wanted to everyday in the last month. I can’t tell you that it’s so easy now that I don’t even have to try because that’s total bull shit. I haven’t lost a ton of weight or dropped 3 sizes in a month. It hasn’t been an overnight transformation with my body, but let’s talk about what has changed and what is working.
I will tell you first that I rely on my fitbit for most of my motivation. I jog at 11pm because I need to get my steps for the day or it tells me when I haven’t got 250 steps in the hour and I have 10 minutes to get my butt up and do something. It tells me how many calories I can eat depending on how active I have been so far that day. I just add my food and water in throughout the day and it’s super easy to do. I love this little thing and the app.
I have went from struggling to jog for 15 minutes to being able to get in 25 with no problem most days. Yes that’s only 10 minutes more, but I can feel a difference and try to push myself a little more each day. Jogging has been the one thing that I have been most consistent with. If I don’t jog, I have walked a good bit that day or done some dancing to really get moving. So jogging has been my most successful goal and I’m proud of myself for sticking with it as much as I have.
Now I believe that you can’t just change one thing and get the results that you want. So on top of being active I try and stay under 1200 calories a day, but stay around 1000 most day’s. I know that doesn’t sound like a lot, but I eat a good bit of the right foods. And that’s what it’s really about, eating the right foods throughout the day so you don’t feel like you are starving between meals. I try to go light for breakfast and lunch so I can have a little extra for dinner. My suggested amount is about 1500 calories a day, but I normally have no problem staying under so I do and then when I do go over I don’t feel as bad.
I am not happy to say I am only doing yoga about 3 days a week. Sometimes it’s only for about 10 minutes a day, but I feel so much better the days that I do and more at peace with how I feel. I am still a very tired mom with a 7 month old that hates me (that has to be it because he is never happy and sleeps almost as little as I do) and a super energetic almost 3 year old. I don’t know how I get up most nights when someone starts crying, but I do and the next day I need to feel as good as I possibly can and I feel yoga will help. My goal is to do it 6 days a week and I hope to be there soon.
Meditation, well that’s not going so well. It’s been really hard for me to carve out time when I am alone to do it. I can do everything else when the kids are up if I need to, but meditating is not something that can happen with them. I have to be more dedicated to this because I truly feel it’s one of the most important things I can do for myself. As a mother and wife I seem to put myself so far on the back burner that I forget I need to take care of me so I can take care of everyone else. I know this is such a huge problem with so many moms and stressed out, overworked people that don’t think they should take time for them, but YOU NEED TO! You need to let go of all the crap you deal with and feel like a person again. Go take a bath and put headphones in so you can’t hear the kids screaming in the living room. Or go hang out on the front porch for a while. Do what makes you feel good. Just do something for you. And I’m going to work on making time for me!
Now let’s get down to the numbers. I have lost a grand total of 2 pounds and dropped 1 pants size! Yea yea that’s not much and believe me, I wish it was a lot more. But my stomach is flatter and I am able to wear things that I would only wear with my waist trainer to smooth everything out at Christmas. So yes it’s only 2 pounds, but I am happy with how much my body has started to change. My body has wanted to hang on to what I had left of my last pregnancy and I have the kid (screaming all the time), so I don’t want to look like I did right after I had him. But I also know that it is going to take time and how I feel can not be put into numbers. I have to keep going and I know I will get to where I want to be.
So to recap for you, I am good at getting my steps, ok at yoga, I suck at meditation, I eat pretty good, and I am super tired all the time. But I also feel better than I have in a long time and am slowly starting to like my body again.
It’s going to take time, dedication and hard work, but I know it’s going to happen. So here is to one month down and a lifetime to go.