Motivation is hard for me. When you have a toddler that is like an Energizer Bunny and a 6 month old that cries or whines 75% of his time awake, you can feel the life in you drain out. Don’t get me wrong I love them to death, but they will be the death of me. My husband and I have talked about maybe having another and I just don’t know if I would make it to the oldest’s graduation if we had a 3rd. I have no idea how people have 5 or 6 kids. I would lose my mind in no time. I would probably want to be taken to the loony bin to have some peace and quiet. So thank the Lord for birth control and until I forget how stressful it is having a needy baby and a toddler at the same time it will be taken every night on the dot.
But I’m getting off track. Sorry, baby brain does not stop after you give birth.
Last week I had lost a pound! I am not dropping my weight very fast, so a pound is a good thing for me to see. That was last Thursday and on Monday I weighed again and I had gained the damn thing right back. I have stayed at around 1000 calories a day, got my steps, jogged, all the stuff I have been trying to fit into my everyday routine and I gained a pound (WTF). So today (Wednesday), I weighed again and look I gained another pound. I wanted to throw my scale through the window.
Instead of giving up and saying screw it and going straight to Krispy Kreme Donuts right down the road with the “HOT” sign on and getting my free dozen when you buy a dozen I took the family to the aquarium, walked around the local tourist trap and went to the park to jog/walk before dinner. I added a thousand steps to my goal each day and doubled my target active minutes a day. Somehow I will get this weight off and keep it off by changing how I live. Eat different and be active everyday instead of when I feel like it.
Right now, my main motivation is dropping 20 pounds and being happy with how I look. It’s still hard for me to really enjoy working out everyday. It’s hard trying to fit everything in between taking care of the kids and everything else that always needs to be done. But I want to get to the point where it feels good to be active and feel better over all.
I find motivation in my family. When my toddler rolls out the yoga mat and gets super excited to exercise with me it makes that workout a little easier even though I know he will only last about 2 minutes before he is off to do something else. I want to be able to run around and play with them now and make it to be old and gray so I can drive them as crazy as they have made me through the years. I want to show them how to live a healthy life and know that they are going to make it til they are old and gray. It’s not just about me anymore, but I don’t want them to be without me so I need to take care of myself too.
And I find motivation in my friends. I want to show them that they don’t just have to be ok with how much they weigh or feel when it’s affecting their physical and mental health in a negative way. That just because you had a child and that baby weight didn’t just go away that it isn’t how you have to stay. I want to be there for them when nothing seems to be working and figure out what will work for them or celebrate when they meet a goal. But I need them to tell me when I’m doing good or when I’m messing up because I am far from perfect and we all need a friend that’s supportive when you are going through a big change.
So take some time to find what motivates you and feed off that. When you need a little pick me up, go to what helps you. Don’t be afraid or feel bad for where it comes from as long as it gets you up and going. Do it for you when everything you do is for someone else. Just do it.