A couple nights ago I woke up and could not go back to sleep because I was trying to decide how I was going to cut my legs off from the uncontrollable itching of poison ivy. This is the first time I have ever had it and I swear I only wish this on a couple people. It’s not like the pain in the ass mosquito bite itch, it’s this uncontrollable itch that makes you want to rip your skin off (at least for me).
While I was up in this panic of itching I decided I was not going to be getting up at 6:30 to be to a yoga class at 7:30. I knew I would be in a super bad mood and I didn’t want to be trying to do yoga and wanting to claw my legs off at the same time. So right there I was setting myself up to have a bad day and I did just that.
I woke up mad because I couldn’t get the baby back to sleep at 7:40 and then a comment was made to me that I took bad and it was a snowball effect. Everything and everyone made me mad after that. I finally decided I would go get a shower and have some alone time. As I was planning my pretend fight over that comment that was made (and let me tell ya, it was getting heated), I realized I was just digging myself a deeper hole.
So I stopped myself because I knew it was going to kill the whole day if I let my negative attitude continue. So in the shower I meditated for maybe 2-3 minutes. I only focused on my breath and calming myself. After a couple minutes I decided I was going to do my best to stay positive for the rest of the day and not let 1 thing ruin a whole day.
I may have went back to my lower self out loud a couple times on the way to and from the grocery store and to myself while inside (tourist town on the weekend in July = a lot of people that have no idea what they are doing or where they are), but for the most part I did pretty good.
I know I will never be a 100% positive person. We are human and shits gonna happen. We can’t just turn the other way because it’s not a positive situation. I mean I don’t get to just leave my kids on the floor while they throw a fit because they didn’t get their way (even thought I want to a lot). But we can stop our self when we are getting too wrapped up in the negative thoughts that fill our heads while in a bad or frustrating situation.
Stop our minds from racing and breathe. Tell yourself to take a deep breath in and slowly breathe out. You don’t have to chant “Om” or anything else. Just breathe and when you allow your thoughts to come back make the decision to think better.
Your inner voice can be a mean and self destructing beast if you let it control you. When you learn to control it you will be a much happier person!