What has changed in 4 months?


I started out at the first of the year wanting to become a better person.  A mind, body, and soul change.  I didn’t hate everything about myself, but I also knew I could be a lot better person for myself and my family.  I wanted to show my children that they can live a happy and healthy life by being a living example.  I knew I needed to change my mindset from the stressed out and negative thoughts that seems to be the norm for everyone now.  I knew I needed to try something else with my fitness routine, because I will never be able to do something almost everyday that I hate doing.  And finally I knew I needed to change our overall lifestyle.  So how much has changed in 4 months?

Let’s start with my mindset.  I never thought it was all going to change over night or be an easy change, but with every big wanted change you have to start small to really make it happen.  When stressed or ready to lose my mind because of my kids, I have learned to stop and try to breath before freaking out (most of the time).  I have always been the one to say what comes to mind as soon as it does and not take the time to think about how upset I will get if I let my words get the best of me.  Now I am not saying I am not still my fiery self.  I will still let you know what I think, but I am a little more conscious about it. Hopefully it’s not just me thinking I am doing better and it’s starting to show to those around me.  I am trying to not let things eat at me like I used to either.  I have always had a problem with this and I still fight with it a lot, but I have found it easier to let it go after I have my 5 minutes of being frustrated.  I have learned that I can’t make people change or be in my life if they don’t want to.  Very little is in my control and getting to a point that I understand and accept that is difficult, but something that has to be done.  Dwelling on things that you can’t change does nothing, so accepting it as it is and moving on is something I try to do every day now.  I can only be open to what and who comes to me and be thankful for the people I can share my life with and be happy for what I have.

Now let me make you understand why my fitness routine is what it is. When I was in labor with my youngest son the nurse suggested that I put my feet in butterfly pose and in less than 10 minutes he was out.  After my first, with 2 hours of pushing, this was amazing to me.  I had always been interested in yoga and had done some here and there, but never anything consistent.  So when thinking about what I wanted to do for my fitness, yoga really felt right; not only for the healthy benefits, but the whole community as well.  The free spirits, self loving, mindfulness of others, and openness to whoever you are and where you are in your life was very appealing to me.  I always feel the meaning of namaste whenever I post anything about yoga on instagram.  At least what I feel namaste means – My soul honors your soul. I honor the place in you where the entire universe resides. I honor the light, love, truth, beauty and peace within you, because it is also within me. In sharing these things we are united, we are the same.  We are one.  I will worry that I’m not far enough in my practice to be posting about it at times and every time I have people that have been practicing for years like and comment on it. This reminds me that they also had to start somewhere and they are not going to think bad of me because I haven’t been at it for half my life.  We are all there to support each other and build the other up.  I feel stronger because of yoga, but not only in my body.  I feel stronger in my mindset.  I don’t focus on what I can’t do; I think about what I can do next.  So even though I am just starting my journey with yoga, I feel it is something I will work at for the rest of my life and hopefully enjoy every bit of it.  

I have also discovered a love for jogging.  If you have been following me then you know it’s not your traditional run 3 miles around the block.  My normal jog is running laps in my house after the kids go to bed, but you have to start somewhere.  My 3 year old is also joining me in this new found love and likes to run in short spurts when we are on walks and ask me to do yoga with him almost daily. It makes me so happy that my fitness choices are lighting a fire in him at such a young age and hopefully stick with him throughout his life.

And last, but not least lifestyle.  If you have kids you know that rather you admit it or not, they run the show so you have to get them on board of this whole lifestyle change too.  We started by cutting down on TV time for all of us, not just the kids.  We used to just have it on even when no one was watching it.  My 3 year old was not to happy about this, but we replaced a lot of it with music and only watch when we really went to see something.  This also gave us more reason to dance around and get everyone moving, so it’s a win win. We have also made it a point to be outside as much as possible.  We have worked so much to clear more of our land so we have more usable room outside.  We have almost doubled our back yard and have so much more room for everyone.  We have their swing set that gets a lot of action and endless running around, but we are also working on a garden to give us even more reason to be out.  We also like to change it up and go to either the park or the beach to walk at least once a week.  It’s all really been more about spending time together being active rather than just being in a room together.

Overall I think we are doing pretty good at working towards a better life as a family. Personally, I think I still have a long way to go as far as being more calm and collected with things going on, but I know I am much better than I was when I started.  Everyday I grow and learn from those around me and the people I am influenced by.  I will always be able to better myself and the life of my family and that’s what I intend on every day.


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